Friday, May 19, 2006
my fear

my mood swings and my tears.
you take them everytime the come.
but every one has a limit to what they can take.
i always worry that i'll hit your limit one day.
every time i throw something at you,
i feel guilty and i fear.
will you leave me now.
if you don't now
i know you will someday.
when will that day come?
when it comes i know my mistake.
i always make the same mistake and the cycle repeats.
nobody can handle a cancerian girl.
nobody can handle me.

baby, i love you, i do.
i love you for handling all my emotional situations so well.
but i don't feel good about it and i don't want you to take it all anymore.

mood swings i will definitle get.
and i can not let you know about them.
but i don't want to be crying alone when i know that you are there.
i know you want to be there for me and always will.
but i don't like you seeing me cry all the time.
but at the same time i want to be i your arms everytime i cry.

you assured me that you'll always be there for me.
but i still fear losing you.
i fear that you'll just give up someday.