Monday, February 12, 2007
rushing rushing
EEKS! there's only hours, minutes and seconds left on my countdown!i've been running around for the past few days trying to get everything ready.
i'm always a last-minute person... it's hard to change.
okay, i better get back to getting my things done.
i'm quite sure i'll forget something.
See ya!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
leaving behind
i've learnt that love does not conquer all. will does.the will of two in love.
two people so very in love giving it up for better things in life.
dreams have to be fulfilled and lived out.
future acquaintances to teach us a lesson or two.
there's too much to experience and too much to keep us more than occupied.
love just have to wait in line.
maybe i'll meet someone new who will steal my heart.
maybe he will too.
i'm sure that whatever [or whoever] comes along will help us grow.
to be more ready for each other
i'll move on.
but i'll still be secretly hoping that someday we'll get a second chance.
i love you and you know that.
i know i still mean a lot to you too.
time just isn't on our side.
who would have thought 4 years ago that we would have this chance.
who's to know what will happen in the future.
maybe these are obstacles to test our will and our love.
maybe it just isn't meant to be.
whatever it is, i'm leaving it all behind as my plane takes off.
when i set foot in Tassy, all will be new.
you'll still be that friend who'd be called upon just for a nonsensical chat.
never ever making much sense, laughing through the night and just make each other happy.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
love me
i wonder what is real and what is not.the love and care has been expressed but all in past tense.
is it still true for the present?
i caught you saying "not that i don't anymore."
or was i just dreaming?
it indeed was late so i do not know.
after that late night convo that we've not had for a long time now,
i was a happy girl. a very happy girl.
all the sweetest things said in the most charming of ways.
i was so ecstatic i could not sleep. really.
i could have talked to him all night.
i did not wanted it to end.
we had something going and i was worried i would wake up to nothing.
still loving him. more than ever.
seeing him smile and i feel blessed.
i was tempted to hold those hands again
and to plant a kiss on his cheek [to me, it's always flawless].
i never got the chance.
it's been such a drama these few years.
we've been going in circles.
and even now that we are leaving and going our separate ways,
we're going to do it in the most drama way possible.
i was quite sure that i wouldn't cry the day i leave.
i'll be back in nov anyway. time will fly by.
but now i think otherwise.
i still think time will fly by. i do.
but i think i'll shed some tears.
considering he'll be flying off just half an hour before i do.
heading to the same country yet miles away.
to watch his plane move off [prob just next to mine].
what is this?!
see me again before we leave.
pull me close.
try again with that kiss.
i'll teach you.
love me.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
to nokk
This entry is specially dedicated to a dear friend (hereinafter known as "Nokk"). [how uncreative of me but i hope you don't mind.]One who bothers to read my blog and sometimes wonder if i'm talking about him in my entries. Well, this time I am. This one's for you.
He makes me smile and makes sure i enjoy myself everytime we're out together. Everything is planned out nicely from where we will be going and what we will be doing to where we will be dining. Most of the time, it's out of the norm and all the time, i like what's planned.
I get to see places in little Singapore that I never quite knew existed. I do things I never knew I could. I didn't know I could have so much fun.
I love going out to take pictures of pretty things and i love candid pictures of me. Going out with Nokk also almost always mean I can just be myself and let my hair down... simply have fun because he'll never judge me. Actually, sometimes he does, but he'll take time to listen me out. However, at times it gets misinterpreted. Sometimes he talks too much but 'Whatever' always shuts him up. How can i live without that word... besides of course my "dot dot dot" to which he never knows how to reply. Simply, "dot dot dot" usually means *roll eyes*. There really isn't a reply to that... you just get on with the convo.
Sometimes he scares me when he seems to know more about me than i know about myself. He remembers the details, the things i do and the things i say. Can get a little too much at times when i have to watch what i say.
Nokk cares and i know that. I've been mean at times or perhaps most of the time. Sometimes even on purpose. But nothing much seems to have changed. He still cares. He's sensitive to my every reaction and makes everything alright.
Sometimes i adore him and sometimes i don't. Most of the time i hurt him and i apologise.
i'm sorry if i've let you down again but i would like to thank you for giving me many truly happy moments.
Nokk is a friend who means much. A friend i'd like to keep for long. A friend. =)