Saturday, June 03, 2006
Something's wrong...

when i cry myself to sleep...
and i awake crying...
i know something's definitely wrong.

but what is it that's wrong?
frustration?
insecurities?
disappointments?
or maybe just the nightmares i had...

last night's sleep was not good at all.
i woke up wishing i hadn't slept.
but then again if i didn't sleep,
i'd probably be having horrible thoughts
that would make the tears flow too.

-Someone i trust and love so much betrayed me.
Intentionally hiding something i'm against.
Maybe if told, i would get angry.
But hiding it won't be any better... in fact it'll be worse.
It was not easy to gain my trust.
You just put yourself at risk of losing it.
Trust, once lost,
Will be several times harder to win back.
Maybe even never.
Don't hide anything from me... be honest.-

-Maybe it's losing.
I don't like to lose.
Especially not the attention I have...
or had...
to... argh... nvm.-

It's all a nightmare.
It's just a nightmare.
It won't come true.
Or at least I hope it won't.