Wednesday, November 01, 2006
conflict

sometimes i really wonder.

why is it that i do what i do just to get pissed off?
it's no fun to be angry at someone...
and it's not that i want to.
it's as good(or bad) as i don't have a choice.
i don't have a choice on whether i want to do it or not.
and i don't have a choice on whether i get pissed or not.
you're probably thinking "nonsense... you always have a choice."
seriously. i don't. trust me.

i have been very very patient and have been thinking very very positively.
but it takes just one L!&d5ay or one Ma&!am to screw my whole mood-and-emotions-thing up.
i can really pull my hair out just talking to them.
i could take it no more.
another conversation with him and i'm quite sure you'll find me in IMH.
heh. so i made Priya call him for me. and she almost pulled all her hair out too.
so see! it's not just Me!

i really don't understand how some people will just not listen to what you have to say and keep insisting they are right.
who's the one with the legal knowledge here? you or me?
if you're so damn smart then why the hell are you asking me for advice?
oh my advice is wrong? then go ask the lawyer yourself!
don't wanna talk to the lawyer? then what do you want me to do?
bloody unreasonable idiots.

unreasonable idiot no. 1 (she's at the top of the list. no one can beat her.)
here's the story:
young and healthy. perfectly capable of working but is not. instead she sleeps till the late morning about 11a.m or even 1p.m. has one child. husband earning about $1,000 per month.

she wants a deed of separation(dos). she does not want child because she thinks child is a burden to her. push child to husband. wants husband to give her maintenace of $800 every month.

told her honestly husband will never sign dos on those grounds.
me: you want him to look after the child and you want him to give you $800 every month?
she: ya (the stuck up way)
me: he is earning $1,000 right? so your husband will only have $200 every month for himself and the child?
she: ya (she still does not get it!)
me: do you have any medical conditions? you are able to work right?
she: ya. but why should i work? my husband can pay me what.
(two tight slaps across her face.)

i honestly wish i could slap her but i couldn't. she deserves it. don't you think?
and she blames me because her husband does not want to sign the dos(because she refuses to reduce the maintenance amount).

i don't want to shout at others or get shouted at or both.
but i put myself through it day after day.
bloody depressing.




thank god i've got other joys in life to keep me happy.
November is here!!!
November=Pulau Aur (it could changed to Dayang) + Bali.
and that means... getting away.
going away is always good. =)

[just the thought of you makes me happy... still.]