Sunday, December 10, 2006
Light my way

I love to have things planned out...
to know what's going to happen and what i'm going to do.

For now, the path before me has been lit. I know what is laid before me on my path, at least for the next 3 years or so. Being firm and not letting the negative talk from others deter me from realising my dreams brought me here. I knew I wanted this no matter what it took.

For those who still do not know, I have been offered a place at the University of Tasmania to study Zoology and I have accepted that offer. Which means I will be leaving this sunny little island to live on a freezing little island down south. [it also means i will be leaving my job soon... very soon.]

Before me are challenges laid.

Stepping into an entirely different field. I have to start from the very basics of Science. Science does not make much sense to me and I find learning something I can't make sense of very tough. I still can't understand why the intensity of colour is measured in nanometres. This is going to be beyond difficult but I am determined to excel in it nonetheless. I am going to prove all those who do not believe I can do it wrong and I am going to make those who believe in me proud.

Moving to another island of a different culture and climate will not be any easier. I think I will be able to get used to the Australian men but I am not sure about surviving the very cold temperatures. At least for once I will be able to experience all four seasons, the long summer days and chilly winter nights. I wanna play with snow and I know I'll be getting that where I'll be. Winter won't be too long after I settle in Tassy. I will experience the best and worst of Tassy and I will be here to tell you about it. I just hope that my fingers will still be able to type then.

Studying under a different system will be tough as well. Guess I'll have to learn to speak up for myself more and put my thoughts across more confidently. I shall not be overshadowed by my Australian counterparts. I want to be known and I want to be out there and up there. It's all about studying smart not just studying hard burying myself in books.

I have never lived apart from my family for the past 21 years of my life, which is ALL my life. This is going to be the hardest challenge of all. Being independent has never quite been part of my growing up. I am what you would call a pampered child. Everything I need, I get. It's all given to me readily. I have been given the luxury of having a maid do the laundry, ironing, cooking and all the other housework for me since my brother was born. Before that, my mum and grandparents did it all. Well, I did try to help my grandpa with the housework but there's only so little that he would allow me to do before chasing me away. Now, I will have to do all that with my own two hands when I start living on my own in Tassy. I suppose the household chores part won't be too difficult, it's being apart from family and friends back home that would be the toughest. I miss everybody already.

Nevertheless, I am excited about this new journey ahead however many challenges and obstacles there may be. Wish me luck people!

now now... for the more imporatant matters.
i need to get my accomodation ready.
i need to get my visa done.
i need to take more pictures of Singapore and of loved ones.
i need to do my packing and shopping and get everything i need ready.
AND
i need to tender my resignation.




Tentatively, I will be flying off on 13th February 2007.
[countdown is on the right... scroll down.]