Tuesday, February 06, 2007
love me

i wonder what is real and what is not.

the love and care has been expressed but all in past tense.
is it still true for the present?
i caught you saying "not that i don't anymore."
or was i just dreaming?
it indeed was late so i do not know.

after that late night convo that we've not had for a long time now,
i was a happy girl. a very happy girl.
all the sweetest things said in the most charming of ways.
i was so ecstatic i could not sleep. really.

i could have talked to him all night.
i did not wanted it to end.
we had something going and i was worried i would wake up to nothing.

still loving him. more than ever.
seeing him smile and i feel blessed.
i was tempted to hold those hands again
and to plant a kiss on his cheek [to me, it's always flawless].
i never got the chance.

it's been such a drama these few years.
we've been going in circles.
and even now that we are leaving and going our separate ways,
we're going to do it in the most drama way possible.

i was quite sure that i wouldn't cry the day i leave.
i'll be back in nov anyway. time will fly by.
but now i think otherwise.
i still think time will fly by. i do.
but i think i'll shed some tears.
considering he'll be flying off just half an hour before i do.
heading to the same country yet miles away.
to watch his plane move off [prob just next to mine].
what is this?!

see me again before we leave.
pull me close.
try again with that kiss.
i'll teach you.
love me.