i had an amazing birthday this year. one that i shared with only me.

it's my first birthday away from home in a foreign land. the first birthday with no friends or family to celebrate with. the first birthday that i truly understood the whole meaning of a birthday.

it was not just another day of celebration or another excuse to get presents and to splurge. it is the appreciation of being brought into this world on this very day 22 years ago. to celebrate life and to honour the very person who tolerated the pain just to give me that precious gift. our birthdays are not just about us but just as much or even more so about our mothers.

today, for one day, i felt very much alive. more alive than ever.

maybe because there weren't anyone around. i had only me and i had all the time in the world to give myself all the attention i need. today, i did whatever i please and whatever pleases me.

i did whatever i wanted to do at my own pace. no opinions. no comments.

no expectations. no disappointments. no surprises. no regrets.

today, for me, it was watching a movie alone that i was most looking forward to. not something i have done before. my mum was surprised when i told her and my best friend said it so wasn't me. i enjoyed it very much. the movie was good and i've got good seats too so i've got nothing to complain about. the lack of company did not affect me a single bit. the only thing i regretted though was not getting popcorn but i had my Starburst gummies with me and that was consolation.

dinner at my favourite pizza place. i even made up my mind about exactly what flavours i wanted to order a few days back. like i always say, i like things planned. i didn't want to have to consider all the flavours when i was standing there in front of an impatient waitress. actually the waitresses there are all quite nice but still i do not want to make the nice waitress tolerate my indecisiveness. i had Kangaroo Mettwurst and something else with Salmon in it. well, first shot at Kangaroo meat. i don't quite like it. it's got a very strong taste to it. a much stronger taste than beef but the texture's kinda like pork. it's one of those things that you kinda get jelak of when you've got too much of it... just like salmon. so it was not a very good combi those 2 flavours. [ya ok i ate Kangaroo meat so those betting that i'll turn into a vegan, you are losing. my goodness... what an animal lover i am. i love them most when they are on plate as food.]

just me, a good pizza, some juice, a good book, a nice warm fuzzy place with good music looking out on the wet winter's night. i like it that way. perfect... and i don't have to share it.

the stars are out today. they usually hide behind the clouds in winter but today they have decided to come out to greet me, adding to my day that extra shine. i appreciate that.

in the privacy of my own room, i decided i shall go a little crazy and take cuckoo pictures like how i always do when i am out celebrating with my friends. none of them are suitable for public viewing and only those close enough will have the privilege. actually, it's only those close enough who will even bother with them anyway.

no birthday is complete without a cake, a litted candle and a wish. it was just a slice of chocolate mudcake which i added ice-cream to. got myself a flower candle just to colour it up and make myself happy. a silent song i sang to myself and a secret wish i made. blew out the candle and feast on my sinful dessert with some Tasmanian Pinot Noir. my warm night light to set the mood. Bride and Prejudice playing on my laptop to end the day with happy celebration music.

i never knew i could enjoy my birthday this much. i really did. i like this new way of celebrating.

a great day all to myself!

thanks to all who made the effort of sending a greeting and for remembering.

much appreciated. =)

Seasons! i love my parcel and everything in it.

so i've got a little something for all 3 of you too.

Jaz dear, here's the Tassie sunset you requested.

it's a bit cloudy so it was not that pretty but i hope you like it.

till i take another picture of a better sunset/sunrise...

this is for you.

Priya darling, this Tassie rainbow is yours.

it's one of the most beautiful rainbow i've seen and i knew i had to capture it for you.

hope you like it.


Dearest Sharita, meet Mr Snowman.

he was made with you in mind.

not the biggest nor the most charming of snowmen but he's pretty cute don't you think?

hope you like it.

~*~SpRiNg * tAmZ~*~ bloomed
7/13/2007 11:16:00 pm.