for a long time i have felt that things were as they always were.
nothing seems to have changed and sometimes i even felt that this was better.
if things were happier this way, then i like it.
reminiscing. familiarity.

but the slightest hint of a change shook me off balance.

like a shadow casting over my familiar comfort.

now i am not sure it is still there.

i can sense it. vaguely.

maybe i've been dreaming all these while.
perhaps i was lying to myself, believing what i want to believe.
that maybe i lost it. i lost it a long time ago.

i am not sure really.
i think i am still suppressing the truth.
hoping for the future.
it's indefinite.

it could also be that i am picking on the tiniest things for an excuse to leave it behind.

i made a decision and i would say i was pretty sure about it.
i knew it would always be a part of me.
i want to hold on to it and to keep it for as long as i can.
till it ends definitely.

maybe this is that hint... that sign.
one that shouts "Wake up!".

i knew.
but i wish i know.
till another comes along.

~*~SpRiNg * tAmZ~*~ bloomed
9/08/2007 01:56:00 pm.